the waiting game that remains to be in the wait

I've been married close to 6 years, every time I chatted my relatives & friends from different parts of the globe asked my the million dollar question, "DO YOU HAVE A BABY NOW?" At first I felt bad and upset because I don't know what to say, tired of answering same questions over and over again. I asked myself, why are people seem inconsiderate to my feelings. Had I not have an equally supportive husband and huge family support I had easily gone to the psychiatric institution.

Even before my husband and I planned to get married, I told him that I may not be able to carry our own child due to medical reasons that I have no control. Everything was okay then, but for some reason in my entire married life I've been longing to have a child of my own and that child will join the celebrity contests in the Philippines. Hahahaha!

Well, anyway I went through a lot of tests and a surgery just recently hoping to reproduce our very own off-spring but maybe its not my time yet. When I missed my period, I was hoping against hope. I waited 10 days more before I courageously bought a pregnancy test and that was yesterday and it turned out to be negative. My sister told me to buy the digital one that says what it is, unfortunately the result is just the same as the first.

(pink: 1st test; purple: my sisters suggestion)

I'm not losing hope. If I'll get pregnant till mid-year that means the best graduation gift but if not I'll undergo another set of medical intervention till I succeed if things won't work then, adoption is an option.