the waiting game that remains to be in the wait

I've been married close to 6 years, every time I chatted my relatives & friends from different parts of the globe asked my the million dollar question, "DO YOU HAVE A BABY NOW?" At first I felt bad and upset because I don't know what to say, tired of answering same questions over and over again. I asked myself, why are people seem inconsiderate to my feelings. Had I not have an equally supportive husband and huge family support I had easily gone to the psychiatric institution.

Even before my husband and I planned to get married, I told him that I may not be able to carry our own child due to medical reasons that I have no control. Everything was okay then, but for some reason in my entire married life I've been longing to have a child of my own and that child will join the celebrity contests in the Philippines. Hahahaha!

Well, anyway I went through a lot of tests and a surgery just recently hoping to reproduce our very own off-spring but maybe its not my time yet. When I missed my period, I was hoping against hope. I waited 10 days more before I courageously bought a pregnancy test and that was yesterday and it turned out to be negative. My sister told me to buy the digital one that says what it is, unfortunately the result is just the same as the first.

(pink: 1st test; purple: my sisters suggestion)

I'm not losing hope. If I'll get pregnant till mid-year that means the best graduation gift but if not I'll undergo another set of medical intervention till I succeed if things won't work then, adoption is an option.

Quote of the day.

The Lord gives, the Lord takes away. Blessed be the Lord.

It's Ash Wednesday today, unfortunately I wasn't able to hear the mass. For some reasons, I totally forgot or maybe it just slipped off my mind because of my hectic schedule. I have lots of paper works to complete and studying. I'm on my final semester then graduation is at hand. It just so sad that I feel so over with all the deadlines and studying yet I still have to work on my remaining months in school. I just hope and pray that God will give me the things I've been working hard to achieve all these years, for in my dreams I see myself in it but in reality I'm still chasing those dreams.

exam and pizza

Oh well, what's the connection? let me tell you, when I'm in the exam mode (read studying) I don't want to be bothered with all the cooking and preparations and cleaning up. I need to be on my books and pretend to be engrossed with all the materials, hell no! I read for 30 minutes and surf the net most of the time. It seems that I have ADD~~ attention deficit disorder to be exact. For some reason I didn't feel worried for my exam tomorrow, as a matter of fact I only started reading the material just today and it is not a straight reading though.

Okay I'm lost where's the pizza coming from? why it came to the picture? Honestly I just felt lazy cooking with valid reason (exam) so, the husband has to order the pizza since I've been bugging him to do so. Well anyway, we argued the where to get it, the toppings anything imaginable when ordering pizza, so we ended up getting from the local pizzeria. It's a vegetable and mushroom period. Bon apetit!

winter storm hits back

Not long ago our area had winter storm which left us over 24 inches of snow to plow. Until now we still have couple inches left on the ground, the only visible part of the ground is the drive way. As of this writing a major storm is coming our way as a matter of fact snow showers started falling as early as 8pm EST. This means that all nigh long and all day tomorrow will be snowing. I can't imagine how the roads would look like the after. I am scared of the thought that I'll be traversing the hi-ways on a deep snow.

When I first came here, I was so excited on my first snow experience but as the years passed by I don't appreciate it anymore, because I am driving at least 45 minutes to school if traffic is clear but when the roads are icy and very slippery a 65mi/hr speed limit will surely reduce to as low as 10mi/hr or maybe less depending on the traffic volume. I kept on praying that the school will be closed and the announcement will be soon enough so that I won't be bothered by waking up earlier than usual. At the back of my head I don't like class suspension because we have to repay for it at a later time that extends our supposedly end of semester break.
In the hospital where I have my clinical rotation, nurses and other workers were not allowed to go home because nobody can come in for the next shift and besides the roads are dangerous to drive. In this kind of weather I wished I had bought a 4 wheeled drive so I could have a better grip on an icy road.
(here's our drive way, notice the left over snow from last saturday's storm and also take note of the snow shower coming down)

Internet Sales Leads

Sometimes I wonder how those telemarketers got our phone numbers. I don't give around my phone numbers yet our house phone often rings only to answer it and listen to sales pitch that sounds very standard. I guess this is part of American life.

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